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Post by onokami on Mar 6, 2013 22:09:23 GMT -6
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-- psychedelicMythos [PM] began pestering cognizantAnalgesia [CA] at 12:24 --
PM: Adri?
PM: Are you there?
PM: Please tell me you are.
PM: I don't want to enter into depression right now.
PM: Or cry myself to sleep.
PM: I just...
PM: I could really use a friend right now.
PM: :^(
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Post by ADRI COOPER on Mar 6, 2013 22:41:54 GMT -6
[atrb=border,0,true][atrb=cellspacing,0,true]CA: ezra?- ezra whats wrong?- no dnt go into a state of depression im here im here D: CA: whats up?- do you need to talk about it? im always here for you <3 |
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Post by onokami on Mar 6, 2013 23:14:29 GMT -6
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PM: And that each have their own family?
PM: Well you see, my father and step-mother are getting married.
PM: While I don't really mind that at all,
PM: The part that really bothers me is about their six-month old son.
PM: I know I shouldn't be affected and have a hissy fit over it but I can't help myself.
PM: I can't stop feeling jealous and dejected when I was finally filling up the gap I had with my dad.
PM: But then my new baby brother comes in and ruins my chances to be happy again.
PM: He get's all the attention and my dad barely even talks to me anymore.
PM: And now he expects me at their wedding so I could look after that little cretin while they exchange vows and start a happy family.
PM: Just fuck my life already.
PM: Of all the people in the world, why do I have to be the cursed one to have such a fuck up family and destined to live a life of being unloved.
PM: Just..fuck.
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Post by ADRI COOPER on Mar 6, 2013 23:57:46 GMT -6
[atrb=border,0,true][atrb=cellspacing,0,true]CA: well i think you have to take a step back from it and be a little more open minded about the idea- i would love to have a little brther myself- or even a bigger family CA: a lot of divorce kids always feel like they are to blame and then that they are being replaced when the family move on- you're not trust me CA: you're just being irrationa cause youre always so depressed- you hit a family goldmine and your moping about it when you should be seizing it and cheering. CA: your dad is going to be happy, youre going to have a mom who lves you, and a little brother who looks up to you- sounds like the perfect shit to me- the brady bunch kind of idealism. CA: just stop being sad and get your crap together so yu can all be happy :D |
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Post by onokami on Mar 7, 2013 3:05:26 GMT -6
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PM: But that is probably the most insensitive thing I've read since I began using the internet.
PM: Have you considered to asses the situation and think things through before you say something that doesn't offend people?
PM: What are you, eight years old?
PM: You address me as an irrational person because I can't be happy for my dad's family that 'I' will never be a part of. You're telling me to just be happy for my dad even if its at the expense of my own happiness.
PM: Don't you think that's unfair on my part? Can't I be a little selfish for once?
PM: Within our father-son relation, I've always been considerate and I always make the effort to mend our broken relationship. And I don't regret anything at all. But this time, he's about to cut me off his life and be happy with his new family. How do you expect me to be happy about that?
PM: "a lot of divorce kids always feel like they are to blame and then that they are being replaced when the family move on- you're not trust me"
PM: Wow that just literally takes the blow.
PM: My own mother doesn't even acknowledge me as her son! In her world, the only children she has are those two idiotas who are permitted by that harlot to beat the shit out of me every fucking day for the last five years!
PM: So how exactly do you expect me to 'trust you' and your opinions when we both know that it's completely full of bull?!
PM: Honestly, the only thing you achieved was to offend me. Thanks a lot, you insensitive twat. I feel oh so much better.
PM: And for the record, this has nothing to do with my depression.
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Post by ADRI COOPER on Mar 7, 2013 16:25:44 GMT -6
[atrb=border,0,true][atrb=cellspacing,0,true]CA: look i didnt mean it in a negative way or anything- im trying to help you nt hurt you more- sometimes people say things you dont want to hear but you got to take the advice ezra. CA: and i was never talking about your biological mother- she doesn't even deserve that tite let alone to be see as a human being with all shes dne- i was talking about your dad CA: i think he loves you too and he wants you to be apart of his family- thats why you're there right?- and its irrational to think that this is al a ploy put on by him to break your heart CA: not everyone is out to get you- and i know thats probably hard to hear with how your biological mother treated you. CA: if you think it makes me eight and an insensitive twat for telling you to give this a chance then i'll be both!- sometimes you do have to sacrifice a bit of happiness yurself for things to work out in the end- sometimes it still doesnt work- but things dont just work out withut a bit of effort. CA: and i really think this new family is something you need- something that you need to fight for no matter how it turns out because you'll regret it if yu dont. CA: they can be the ones to help and protect you and support you when you need it- and i just CA: i dont want to see you alone again ezra- you need this |
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Post by onokami on Mar 7, 2013 21:28:56 GMT -6
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PM: I don't think anyone would be willing to follow your advice.
PM: You're just telling me to deal with this even though it's gonna leave me completely unhappy for the rest of my life. And I'm tired of being the one who always have to sacrifice for the sake of the other. If I keep doing it, I don't think I'd ever have a chance to be happy at all.
PM: Somethings aren't solved by simple solutions, Adri. In fact, not everyone gets that happy ending you see in those american romance films.
PM: Those are only apparent in movies. And the things happening to me right now isn't even close to any kind horsedung fantasy of happily ever after.
PM: My life is some Hispanic soap opera and if you've watched one, you'd know those kinds of shows are the real deal.
PM: But whatever. You can't just tell me that it would work out for me in the end.
PM: Look, I don't know if you'd been paying attention but I specifically told you that mi papa hasn't spoken to me in like half a year. And if he does get the time to talk to me, he only speaks of that little attention swine.
PM: The signs are clear as crystal, ragazza!
PM: Even if he doesn't intend to be a douche and wants me to be part of the family, it wouldn't be the same. I'm not saying that he could turn out to be my mother but I'm afraid he's starting to forget that he also has another son here. They'd be one big happy family and I'm just an outsider to that happiness.
PM: I know that you mean well, Adri but... The fact that you could say this to me like it's that simple and not consider how I would feel is making it worst.
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Post by ADRI COOPER on Mar 8, 2013 0:18:29 GMT -6
[atrb=border,0,true][atrb=cellspacing,0,true]CA: but i never said it was simple!- i never even said it was guaranteed to wrk out perfectly in the end- i just said to try! CA: yu arent even reading what im writing! CA: how can ignore a chance at happiness?- is the risk really too high? CA: i know things are bad for you right now- i know i know i know so very much that they are bad- and im not trying to be your enemy here ezra- im just saying not everything is as hopeless as youre thinking CA: you cant see the future- you dnt know whats going to happen when all of this blows over- this might be your fathers only way to communicate to you that he wants this and you CA: dammit ezra have a chance at a famiy and yes youre robably going to have to work your ass off for it but its a family!- families are important even if they all arent related by blood- they stick with you no matter what and love you without thought- THEY could make you happy CA: youre being a fucking idiot about this! CA: look wait i- CA: i didnt mean that im just really frustrated because i really want this for you- i want you to be hapy but i cant help you if you dnt want to be helped! |
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Post by onokami on Mar 13, 2013 18:31:10 GMT -6
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PM:...
PM: I think I should get going now.
PM: I'm sorry for ever bothering you with this.
PM: Don't worry this will not happen again.
PM: Goodbye.
-- psychedelicMythos [PM] ceased pestering cognizantAnalgesia [CA] at 13:00 -- EZRA: Proceed to cry yourself to sleep
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Post by ADRI COOPER on Mar 13, 2013 21:35:35 GMT -6
[atrb=border,0,true][atrb=cellspacing,0,true] -- cognizantAnalgesia [CA] began pestering psychedelicMythos [PM] at 11:27 -- CA: hey i- look i know you probably dont want to talk to me- i wouldnt want to talk to me- im a shitty friend- im so sorry i did that to yu and i do wish i could take it back- but i shouldnt even be in this position- but im a stupid ignrant little girl who made a big mistake- im so so so sorry ezra
CA: ezra?
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CA: i understand you not responding i just wanted to apologize- and i will do anything to make you feel better- i fucked up our friendship and i understand if you dn't want to talk to me anymore- and if you completely hate my guts
CA: just want you to know im sorry- and im stupid- and everything i said was hurtful and didnt even cnsider you- i was just so wound up in what i thought was right i ignored you.
CA: i really am sorry ezra
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CA: guess ill go nw.-- cognizantAnalgesia [CA] ceasedpestering psychedelicMythos [PM] at 13:36 -- -- cognizantAnalgesia [CA] began pestering psychedelicMythos [PM] at 12:31-- CA: yea its me again- just checking up on you
CA: maybe youre busy- hope im not disturbing anything- just wanted to apolgize again for being such an awful human being
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CA: i dont want to bother you so i'll leave you be.-- cognizantAnalgesia [CA] ceased pestering psychedelicMythos [PM] at 13:03 -- -- cognizantAnalgesia [CA] began pestering psychedelicMythos [PM] at 13:00-- CA: hey ezra you there?
CA: still dnt want to talk to me eh?- thats alright- im sorry for being an idiot and i hope you do what you need and want to when the time comes.
CA: and maybe get a better friend- one who doesnt fuck things up out of stupidity
CA: but they better love yu as much as i do...-- cognizantAnalgesia [CA] ceased pestering psychedelicMythos [PM] at 13:13 -- -- cognizantAnalgesia [CA] began pestering psychedelicMythos [PM] at 17:14 -- CA: hey ezra- its been awhile since we talked- don't know if youre still ignoring me?
CA: i really want you to give me a chance- i really am sorry and i miss you a lot- but i understand if you dn't want to give me that chance
CA: i dont deserve it at all
CA: i did send you something in the mail- and no im nt trying to buy you back- though i guess i kind of hope that works? heh
CA: its just i remember you liking that one plushie- and you got your birthday coming up so.
CA: wel uh- have a good day-- cognizantAnalgesia [CA] ceased pestering psychedelicMythos [PM] at 17:28 -- -- cognizantAnalgesia [CA] began pestering psychedelicMythos [PM] at 03:34 -- CA: i messed up s bad- and im terribe and dnt deserve yu- r anyne- and i want to take it bac- and i knw yu hate me- ths sucks s much
CA: im s so s s so srry-- cognizantAnalgesia [CA] ceased pestering psychedelicMythos [PM] at 03:36 -- -- cognizantAnalgesia [CA] began pestering psychedelicMythos [PM] at 22:34 -- CA: hey- i hpe everything's going all right for you
CA: still sorry i was such a jerk- still wishing i could make it up to you
CA: sorry im aso bothering you so much- i know i should give you space but im just a big dumb idiot and can't figure shit out.
CA: sorry- i- bye-- cognizantAnalgesia [CA] ceasedpestering psychedelicMythos [PM] at 22:41 -- -- cognizantAnalgesia [CA] began pestering psychedelicMythos [PM] at 08:59 -- CA: so i guess i really fucked up- you haven't talked to me in what seems like frever- and it really sucks.
CA: i really sincerely hope you are happy now- i didnt want to upset you ever- you're my best friend you know?
CA: and i guess i should probaby leave you alone now?- im going to miss you a lot- like i dont know what im going to do- but i guess i shouldnt make this about me
CA: one last time i guess- it can't hurt the situation i dont think- im sorry ezra- so sorry and not just because im hurt but because i hurt you so fucking much.
CA: i- ill just leave you alone now- you're probably tired of getting all these messages- if yure even getting them
CA: im going to miss you a lot ezra
CA: <3-- cognizantAnalgesia [CA] ceased pestering psychedelicMythos [PM] at 09:22 -- |
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