Relationships are hard [Venn]

[ross]

AA: Are you there?
AA: Please be there.
AA: I fucked up.
AA: i fucked up bad
AA: please

[venndiegram]

VC: !'m r!ght here ross
VC: tell me what's go!ng on

[ross]

AA: calis here
AA: Sorry.
AA: Cali's here.
AA: In the labyrinth.
AA: In my house.
AA: We talked.
AA: About things.
AA: And
AA: I lost my fucking voice, Venn.
AA: I can't make a sound.
AA: Not even a fucking sob.
AA: And I didn't notice until it was too fucking late.
AA: And she started to cry.
AA: She thought I was ignoring her.
AA: And then I hugged her.
AA: And then she kissed me
AA: and i kissed back
AA: and she pulled away
AA: and everythings gone to shit
AA: and i cant talk
AA: i told her everything and she didnt see it and now i ruined everything

[venndiegram]

VC: okay
VC: all r!ght the f!rst th!ng
VC: !s to real!ze that th!s !s not a world-end!ng catastrophe
VC: the second th!ng to real!ze !s that r!ght now argu!ng w!th me !s l!terally the dumbest poss!ble th!ng you could do, so don't do !t
VC: okay?
VC: all r!ght
VC: !t sounds to me l!ke the problem was comun!cat!on
VC: that's all
VC: !t's not as though some burr on your soul !s the cause of th!s confl!ct
VC: just an !ssue of m!scommun!cat!on
VC: and that sucks
VC: but you're not out of the game yet

[ross]

AA: I'M A FUCKING MUTE
AA: I'm a mute and she kissed me and when I kissed her back she just ran away.
AA: How the fuck am I not out of the game?

[venndiegram]

VC: ross
VC: dare ! po!nt out that we are commun!cat!ng just f!ne r!ght now
VC: and we don't know for sure !f the loss of your vo!ce !s permanent, e!ther
VC: you st!ll have mult!ple facult!es by wh!ch you can talk to cal!
VC: ! w!ll be your fuck!ng hand puppet !f that's what !t takes

[ross]

AA: No, don't.
AA: There's no need for that.
AA: I'm sorry.
AA: It's just
AA: She's in Cael's room.
AA: She's one wall away and I can't talk to her and she doesn't want to talk to me.
AA: It hurts.

[venndiegram]

VC: well, maybe you could both do w!th some space r!ght now
VC: to try and get yourself feel!ng okay
VC: ! don't suppose you could elaborate a l!ttle more on exactly what happened?

[ross]

AA: I was in the labyrinth.
AA: Clearing out enemies and leaving markers for the dragons to follow so they could find my place.
AA: When suddenly Cali drops in out of fucking nowhere.
AA: And I showed her how to talk in the labyrinth by writing on the walls.
AA: And she asked if there was anywhere we could talk.
AA: So I took her home.
AA: And we started talking about how I'd gotten angry at her the last time we talked and why.
AA: Except we didn't.
AA: She talked, and I texted. I didn't even realize I was doing it. I haven't said a single fucking word since I first got here and now I can't.
AA: She thought I was ignoring her, Venn.
AA: She was breaking down and I didn't see it because I was too busy telling her how I feel about her.
AA: And then she started crying and I didn't know what to do so I hugged her
AA: And
AA: She kissed me.
AA: And I just kissed her back.
AA: Which is when she realized what a huge fucking mistake she was making.
AA: And begged me to say something.
AA: Which was when I realized I hadn't actually said a word to her. I couldn't. I can't.
AA: And after that she asked if there was a room somewhere she could take
AA: And I ran into mine and told her to take Cael's.
AA: And slammed the door on her.
AA: And here I am, fifteen minutes of panic attack and another fifteen minutes of crying later.

[venndiegram]

VC: well, here's the honest truth: you handled that terr!bly
VC: but !t's st!ll not a complete d!saster
VC: presumably, cal! w!ll check her pesterlog to see what you sa!d
VC: she'll know you weren't !gnor!ng her
VC: and, once you've both had some t!me to calm down
VC: you'll talk about th!s

[ross]

AA: What could I possibly say that doesn't make this a hundred times worse?

[venndiegram]

VC: honestly, ross
VC: ! th!nk !f the two of you just honestly talked about th!s !t'd go eas!er
VC: the truth !s, these sorts of th!ngs aren't exactly my forte!
VC: ! mean w!th me and cory !t was just really s!mple
VC: she asked !f ! l!ked anyone, and ! sa!d ! l!ked her
VC: she sa!d she l!ked me, but also that she had mult!ple partners
VC: ! was okay w!th that, so we started go!ng out
VC: no fuss, no muss, no heartbreak
VC: and !f, !n the end
VC: when you talk about all th!s cal! adm!ts that she !sn't !nterested !n you
VC: then that's not the end of the world
VC: you're st!ll a great person, and !'m sure there'll st!ll be someone for you

[ross]

AA: I envy you and Cory.
AA: I really do.
AA: One of said chicks is a fucking religious fanatic, and another is fourteen.
AA: Which leaves three chicks.
AA: In the entire universe.
AA: I should just give up.
AA: And accept that I'm never going to get anyone or anything I want.

[venndiegram]

VC: oh
VC: sh!t ! forgot that
VC: well for the record, you don't need a romant!c entanglement to be a complete human be!ng
VC: ! mean ! love cory don't get me wrong
VC: but ! had my own th!ngs go!ng on before we dec!ded to do our th!ng, and ! have my own th!ngs go!ng on now
VC: and ross, you are an amaz!ng person, w!th or w!thout a g!rlfr!end
VC: !'m not go!ng to prom!se you that cal! w!ll l!ke you
VC: because ! don't know what cal! feels
VC: but !rrespect!ve of whatever happens between you and her, what ! th!nk !s most !mportant !s that you both be HONEST w!th yourselves
VC: and stop runn!ng
VC: or you're only go!ng to be m!red !n between what you want and what you fear
VC: and you deserve more than that

[ross]

AA: Venn.
AA: Your professional peers used to call you Doctor.
AA: Unironically.
AA: I have a level 15 Paladin.
AA: My life, regardless of how me and Cali turn out, has lived in Dulltown on the corner of Boring and Unremarkable since I was born and is seriously considering a venue change to a permanent residency in a roach-infested shithole in Cautionary Taleville.